Lili Reinhart is grappling with her inner demons.
Reinhart, 23, spoke with Refinery29 from her new Encino home, where she described her struggles with depression and love withdrawal.
‘I couldn’t see the light. I was like, I feel like I’m dying. It was f**king rough, and there’s no other way through it than just through it,’ the 23-year-old said of her depression.
‘I couldn’t see the light’: Lili Reinhart described her battle with depression and love withdrawal in her new interview with Refinery29
While others may resort to substance abuse or sex in order to fill that void, Reinhart decided to deal with her problems head-on.
‘I’ve seen a lot of people when it comes to heartache and grief and breakups, and they try to get that void filled with sex, with coke, with food, with drinking, [but] the void is still there. I took the road less traveled and just dealt with my s**t. I had to face my own pain head-on.’
Reinhart, who reportedly split from Cole Sprouse prior to the pandemic, and is also dealing with love withdrawal.
‘The last couple of months have probably [been] the most emotional few months of my entire life and my therapist [told] me, “Your body’s going through withdrawal from love. You’re used to having this exchange of happy chemicals between you and the person that you’re with.”
‘You’re used to having this exchange of happy chemicals’: Reinhart has been dealing with these last few tumultuous months in therapy
Real-life chemistry: Reinhart was dating her Riverdale co-star Cole Sprouse before reportedly splitting prior to the pandemic
Getting a ‘fix’ of pain relief through love is something Reinhart has done throughout her life.
‘In moments of my life, I have dropped every ounce of pride that I had just to be like, Love me. Please take the pain away for a day, a second, an hour, just so I can feel that fix again.’
Fortunately, the actress has a creative outlet to express herself.
‘Love me’: Getting a ‘fix’ of pain relief through love is something Reinhart has done throughout her life
In addition to acting, Reinhart will be releasing her new book of poems, Swimming Lessons.
Yet Reinhart makes clear in her book’s introduction that the poems are not necessarily a reflection of her actual emotions.
‘I felt the need to write that because I was scared — and I am scared — that people are going to try and create their own idea of what my love life looked or looks like,’ Reinhart explains. ‘I’m not saying, My boyfriend f**ked another woman. I’m saying, I felt betrayed.’
After three years on and off, Reinhart reportedly split from her Riverdale costar before the pandemic struck.
‘Cole and Lili split before the pandemic hit, and have been quarantining separately. They remain good friends,’ an insider told Page Six in May.
Coming soon: Lili’s poetry book Swimming Lessons will be released September 29
Source: Daily Mail
